combustão (ou when fire meets air)

depois de tantos cigarros pela manhã
e dos lençóis usados pela noite
o peso de seus cabelos negros no meu peito
se misturaram com o amarelo
        das duas cabeças do ar

os cinzeiros engarrafados me sufocam
tive de deixar algumas cinzas pela casa

           eu já não posso respirar seus áries
           o ar me parece muito mais leve

eu traio todas as manhãs
           com a madrugada
mas a aurora é tão bondosa
que jamais se recusou
           a me aquecer

ao sol de duas cabeças

Eu nunca gostei de pêssego
Mas depois de ler os seus poemas
                       pela manhã
mudei de ideia

Se aos 15 anos
Tudo é infinito
Aos 20, nada é
Principalmente aquela garrafa de rum
Que eu quebrei no chão
Da sua cozinha

and then you said you wouldn't miss me
not even if i find a two-headed guy

and i'm missing you
but i shouldn't 
'cause you said

you wouldn't

Há muito em minha mente
E pouco em minha garganta
Ou - quem sabe - há tanto em minha garganta que o força a descer-me pelo estômago

Incha minhas entranhas que não suportam mais engolir tanto

O pai da aflição geme

Suplica pelo vômito incessante
que esvazie o meu ser

Cada vez mais grávida
de um filho que não sabe como nascer

do you have a lighter?

you were high and i was in love
when we discussed at the bar - why did i still stick with you?
you hold my hand and i was hoping i was strong enough to refuse it
i was not

otherwise
i was weak and i held you
and i gave you that sad smile - which i often give you
and asked you "tell me something you've never done"
you said "lots of things"

we had some fun at the fine arts building
we got into my car
i drove you somewhere you had never been
high
higher

do you have a lighter?

you kissed the planets on my back

"mercury is such a small planet. though it's so important"
"let me kiss the earth"
yes. it needs lots of kisses
it's sick

i wish that kisses could stop the universe
"we're a classic couple" you said
"no.. we've got so many more nuances" (to be honest, are we a couple at all?)

we were naked at my car
and gosh
you looked amazing under that traffic lights

i'll never forget how pretty you are

"will you tell your future guys about me?"
"of course i will.. we drove naked through the city"

"you must understand this is all new to me"

"you've got a bird's heart. let me feel it"

i thought it would take longer to me to go away
but i'm leaving

each day by
it seems like i'm leaving

"i'll never forget you"
in fact, i'm never gonna let you forget me
it is not on my plans to leave you - even though i'm leaving

you left my last cigarette on my car
wish i could share it with you
smoked it alone

(ps: i hope you and i always remember that day anytime we ask someone for a lighter)